People think I know some things. So, I’m asked some BIG OVER THE TOP questions. I’m not sure if, it’s because I’m experienced in life or the word, pastor, is connected to my name. Don’t answer. Because. You know. “Old is a matter of perspective.”
Yesterday. The question: “What is the last thing seen before death and first thing seen after death?”
I know. Big. Theological. Mystery of life and death question.
BUT. I love the moments all ages question the deep. Questions lead to discovery, understanding, and trust. At the end of the day, some things will remain beautifully wrapped in mystery as we continue to probe and pursue.
Here’s what I know:
God is love.
God pursues humanity with love.
God loves no. matter. what.
God’s love is always.
Love is always present. Because. God is always present on earth and in heaven, whether you and I think so.
I’ve been with mamas giving birth, leaning in, waiting for the newborn to take the first breath. In that moment, love fills the room, regardless of who else is in the room. And. I’ve been with dying individuals, leaning in, listening for the last breath. In the final moment, I can tell you for sure God is as present with strong love in the last breath as in the first.
And, I know love is the first thing to be seen after death when God’s love is accepted. Because. Love is not forced but offered. I can only imagine the beauty of love on the other side of death.
Love knows no division between life and death, earth and heaven, or strong and weak.
The thing is . . . the with-God life . . . gives the opportunity to experience and live fully engaged in the unusual-unstoppable-amazing love. The collaborating evidence is overwhelming. I mean. It’s turned my life upside-down. If, we could see the love all around us, I’m pretty sure there would be some major changes within and all around us.
Even, so. Not everyone is on the same page when it comes to God’s love. When it seems our life is hanging by a thread, it’s easy to be blind to the love God has surrounded us with. BECAUSE. The truth is . . . God is holding us . . . not a thread.
God’s love is different than limited humanity’s love; it’s beyond comprehension . . . seemingly impossible. Throughout the years, I’ve watched people push back and run hard because of the fear of being abandoned. The river of abandonment runs deep within the soul, which may not always be recognized but is active in the way one thinks, feels, speaks, and acts. The result is brokenness and a veiled perspective with end-of-the-world thinking. The new day disappears in the midst of the challenge of feeling abandoned, alone, and without love.
And. Abandonment not only runs it’s course in life but in the process of looking at the reality of our own death. I’ve come to realize the fear of abandonment is a major component of the fear of death. God’s love answers and heals the deep river of abandonment.
It’s part of this soul-truth:
In the roar of Your waterfalls, ancient depths surge, calling out to the deep. All Your waves break over me; am I drowning? Yet in the light of day, the Eternal shows me His love. When night settles in and all is dark, He keeps me company— His soothing song, a prayerful melody to the True God of my life (Psalm 42: 7-8, Voice).
Love remains. Faithful and true. Calling deep. Risking all. Determined to win, not only taking us to the finish line but across it.
Love calls deep–Kerrie
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